hi people...went to NP ministry for tape listening... note down a couple of points and will apply it to my life too...hmm my contact just sms me saying," i enjoyed the singaporean idol but i don't wanna be a christian... hmmm, had a talk with mice just now, good talk, got to catch up with her, heard that she kinda backslide... must pray for her. ying called me and said how come i like a bit the religious and why not don't go for some of the church activities? hmm... must pray too~how come some people ( in general ) know the word of god yet choose to turn away from it leh? frankly speaking, i backslided before last year when i was still attending my old church. not so committed to church, always 'diao a lang dang', then around jan 2003, i turned to god, couldn't cope with such a huge burden, i desperately needed god to give me strength. he did. after 4th feb, i realise i wasn't such a 'hum bao' and weakling after all. charls knows best, whenever i have a problem, i try not to cry as i will be deemed as a weakling, until she kept telling me thats its OK to let it out. haiz. i really need god to help me overcome some stuff. my friend called me last week and asked me a few questions, i said," god will help me." immediately my friend laughed. saying that that's the funniest thing she ever heard. and she asked me to repeat myself. ashamed of what i said, i said nothing, nothing... and yes, after that i WAS ashamed. how come i didn't stand up for god? you know ah people, some of you who are non-christians reading today's blog of mine might think," aiyah, please lah. i tell you people, when you KNOW and understand the word, nothing will make you turn away from it. i really hope to see non christians, my family and friends come to know god. serious. even my mum who used to be an anti christian even accepted christ. to the christians- people who laugh and persecute you, forgive them for they don't know what they are doing and saying. instead pray for god to soften their hearts. must focus on god rather then focus on the problems.and here's something for people in general to think about. what is your real motive. ( this applys to all... and me~ )

feeling: don't understand a lot of stuff
audio: emmanual - hillsong