hmm... the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak... i didn't turn up for the matthew event today because at the market i started getting flu and then i started having headaches then from there...wha..cannot take it...went home early today... sms livi about not turning up and some stuff that its... hmmm... feeling hmmmified... then i slept leaning my whole body weight on my arm... arm aching now...later i'll be doing my charcoal drawing... dots and lines... like i said yesterday god spoke to me thru the word... wha... so accurate... something that has been bothering me and i've been questioning it since some donkey times ago... have to focus on certain stuff and also my attitude... last night really cannot take it... so many things to think about... perd...im amazed at how you can take my crap sometimes... that's something i have to learn from you and also your positive outlook of things no matter how they turned out and also not be influenced by the surroundings... man... self righteous... no good... must change and pride too... sometimes i felt that god's grace really amazes me in such a way that i find it hard to believe... your grace still amazes me...

feeling: tired
audio: my sister's snores... oopsy