hmm people~ yeah~ some stuff in my mind now but shall not blog them out cos... erm... not very good lah... anyways~ i remembered pastor jeff said~ some things are a blessing in disguise~ this sentence really made me sit up straight and think twice about how i reacted to my people and to others who saw me before the service... careless me, my wallet got lost and the thing is that my tithe is inside and there's about $130 inside plus my popular, art friend and nafa card... the thing that made my heart ache most was that it was my mother's wallet... oh wells, no point lah, over liao~ ok...

anyways~ i remember this part from the sermon about the staying fresh with god... it's like the zeal and the so called excitement in us for god over a period of time... is it still there? i was thinking~ some part of me said yes but some part of me... no... of cos when i'm doing new things~ im so *on* for god~ but when the thing i'm doing is so... continuous and in turn becomes draggy... then that's when i start to wear out like the rubber sole under the shoe... it's the way i value the tasks... then i realise~ germaine ah~ how can like that? it's not always about us. it's all about him... HIM. when there are leaders around us, watching us, we tend to want to please them or even find favour in their eyes but if you do things that are right before god, why be afraid of what other people might say? i used to please leaders and there was once during cg there was a leader and i was chairing and i was so afriad that i might say the wrong thing or let the cg be super dry... then i kept looking into the leader's eyes like macham trying to take a sneak peek... then suddenly i remember that at the end of the day it's not about the leader whom i am going to please more rather, it's Him.

*it's all about you, it's all about you~ jesus*

been thinking about my 2 nb. they really came out of nowhere and they are just so... PLOP down suddenly... really grateful for them because without them... i wouldn't learn how to be more loving and more responsible too... when i go to school and see my classmates whom some of them *cachiaw* me about going to church church church~ i thank god for them too~ because thru them i learn to perservere in my walk with god... my modules~ are like always discussing that sex sells and please promote more about sex... i'm thankful that the harsh reality of the world made me more careful about how things should be done in the right way... and basically, i'm thankful to god because without him i wouldn't even be here to learn all these...

i'm feeling much better even though my wallet is gone. took me not very long lah to get over it... thanks to perd, ash and dan for helping me to search for the wallet high and low in nexus and at isle cafe... ahya~ *xim tia* braun buffel somemore... okok cannot dwell in it anymore~ ok peeps, be careful with your wallet wherevere you go okie~

my papa just told me~ ah girl ah sleep early today ah tmr the stall will have a massive crowd cos chinese new year is coming... wha pengs... better get some oxygen inside my brain... to get it to function well... so that i can give the right and exact change... okok~ please come and buy fish from me~ white promfert is going at ard... erm $30+++ - $40+++ for those big ones... wha cos new year mah... soon it'll be $80+++ no kidding... this is very real... and erm... come leh pyscho your mama or papa to come and buy from me... muahahahaha i will treat any hoppies who come chuppa chups de~ ps... my papa's fish stall located in the market opp esso tiger mart~ blk 93, the shuai ge with a thick crown of shiney glossy black hair is my papa, if you find him bearing a close resemblance to QIN HAN don't hesitate, it is my papa~ and i am LIN QING XIA~

feeling: sleepy and... real sleepy
audio: happy song - delirious