man what a day... finally went for earl's lesson... i hate drawing and my drawing did improve... but one thing... he said that my drawing looks like... a butch, very masculine... hui meh? that wynnii lu qiaoling!!! she told me a word... cantonese word... which actually means f*** you... then i dun know mah so i asked around... then my teacher said to me f*** you... dang... don't know whether i should be fuming or what... i was speehless... but heck lah just laugh it off... so diao one... but good lah, my teacher said to me... your drawing is not bad, considering you haven been turning for my lessons... heh heh... oh no... my perdy's gonna kill me~

i teared... cry lah in class today... don't know whether is it i suay or what... today in pattern making class... i was sitting there quietly... not talking ( surprise? ) then my teacher who just put down the phone looking a bit not very good ( don't know how to describe ) started to teach us how to draw some stuff... then she came over cos it's her routine to always check whether we are doing her work properly... my friend who happened to stand beside me...

then i asked her, teacher how to draw this part... she replied...

always ask people to help you! why don't you do things by yourself! why are you talking!

me ( this time i was completely blur and just couldn't figure out what was happening... then i just like huh? ) i replied i wasn't talking teacher, she was just standing here and i just happend to ask you how to draw this part... she insisted that i was talking to my friend and i was asking for people's help in doing my drawing and asking my friend to help me draw... im like??? so i told her im sorry teacher but i really didn't talk and i didn't ask her for help in fact i'm asking you how to draw this bodice block... wha pengs we go on and on for like 15-25 mins and im like so pissed really hate it man kenna for no reason... then in the end she kept on insisting it was me then she said i'm not picking on you... wha pengs in the end i was like~ what the toot? then in the end i was like wha cannot tahan... trying to control my emotions then wha tears just drip... not flow... she looked at me then she started scolding the whole entire class... then in the end... wha pengs... all diao one lor... then she said im leaving!!! then ah ding and jinqi started to tell her that we're sorry then ding looked at me... telling me to say sorry... ah~ pride man... initially i refused... then i just... im sorry teacher... she said it's ok... then she calmed down but then... wha pengs... again... there she goes... scolding... then in the end we all came to one conclusion... i AM suay... ahahaha no lah not biblical... just not in the right place at the right time...

so argh one leh... i cry easily eh? using me a medium... need more wisdom lord...

tmr's plans: help out in sch open house from 10-4, rush for service, attend school year one bash wha pengs... good thing that my holiday is monday... 1 week holiday somemore!!!

feeling: tired tmr will be one long full day and i really need more wisdom...
audio: airport 1030 - david tao