ah~ what a day... prayers work and god doesn't stop working and oh yes, he works on time. he make sure the sun rises on time so we will wake up on time, he make sure the sun sets too so we can have our good night sleep. ah~ little things in life that god made for us - contents in our life make up our whole life story, but in the end, many's contents are worth nothing, all empty words and all full of bitterness, pride, anger or even lies.

what lies beneath? beneath a mask, a smile, an expression or even a conversation?

sis was driving me home from school and she was playing her church sermon tape and many things hit me. about how my life has been revolving around projects and my classmates. and how far i was from god recently. until to a point, i screamed at my shepherd. nope i'm not ashamed to blog about this but only hope that readers out there will see this entry from another angle and maybe learn something from it. out of abundance the heart speaks. in your anger do not sin. all which i failed to do. i got so caught up with my class politics until to a point i got so sick of it. the mouth... how i wish i could snip it off but no, wisdom and encouragement shall come out of it instead. not putting people down. my class. sometimes i wish i will go back to my old self where i will just smile and ignore whatever new gossip they're spreading around instead of wanting to know more. and also, the fact that sometimes, when thigns go wrong as they sometimes will, take the crap with a step of faith and face it. don't turn away from it. i turned away from god and so many other stuff that i chose to ignore it and in the end i isolate myself. feeling so empty. because i didn't put god first or rather, running away from god. in the end. i chose him over everything because deep inside me i knew that without him i can't do anything, without him i couldn't survive.

without Him, i am nothing.

and then god spoke. about hiding his word deep inside our heart. not letting it slip away. memorise his words so that it can be inside us, stay with us, becoming part of us.

so what am i gonna do next now that i refreshed myself?

go figure... :)

homework will not cease, neither will problems. but faith will do exactly the opposite. but remember... faith without works is dead. don't say but not do okie... this implies to all peeps. and me. :)

was chatting with bon today and she told me something about evangelising everywhere you go. she helped an old lady bring her heavy sardine cans to her house. old grandmama doesnt dare to take the lift so they climbed the stairs together. then sis asked her in teochew

sis: do you know jesus?
grandmama: yes, he's a good man~
sis: yup, but do u wanan accept him into your life?
gmm: can meh? i so old liao, can change ah?
sis: of cos!
gmm: but who will pray for me when i die?
sis: no one will becos they will lead their own lives by then.
gmm: is it?
sis: yes. would you like to go to heaven?
gmm: smiles
sis: you can you know by accepting him into your life.
gmm: grins
sis: can i pray for you?
gmm: okie!
sis: ***
gmm: grins thank you!
sis: how old are you?
gmm: you guess.
sis: 8++?
gmm: haha so young meh no lah guess again.
sis: 9++?
gmm: nope im more than a decade old... grinz~

in case being more than decade old means nothing to you, what about this, walking to her flat more than 10 blocks away from tiong bahru plaza without taking the lift. man this gmm is one women of steel sia...

next thing i've heard from wynnii the penguin...

wyn saw an old man in the mrt, anytime the mrt jerks, the old man will fly anytime too ( becos he's standing mah and very fragile liao ) wyn looked around and saw a couple sitting down together...

wyn: excuse me, can you please give up your seat to this old pek here?
couple: NO.
wyn: ...speechless.
mrt audience: diao couple...

it dawned upon me that, the couple ah... tsk... and also the audience ah... don't diao... but give up one of your seat too mah...

do you give up you seat to that old uncle, pregnant lady, auntie carrying lotsa things etc over there? time to give it up okie...

thinking: one day in the house of god is, better than a thousand days in the world~
song: nameless tune