yes no wait.

don't fret. god is still good. future looks dark because i rely on my human eye sight.

ah~ walk by faith and not by sight.

2 tim 4:16-18

alexander the matelworker did me a great deal of harm. the lord will repay him for what he has done. you too should be on your guard against him because he strongly opposed our message. at my first defense, no one came to my support, but everyone deserted me. may it not be held against them. but the lord stood at my side and gave me strength, so that through me, the message might be fully proclaimed and all the gentiles might hear it. and i was delivered from the lion's mouth. the lord will rescue me from every evil attack and will bring me safely to his heavenly kingdom. to him be glory for ever and ever. amen.

that feeling is making me tired - having eye bags. having unkept hair. sleepless nights. i'm scared but who knows what wonderful thing might be churn out form this turmoil? job didn't complained when he was covered with sores nor did he gave up when his everything was bascially wiped out. how blind i am... ack~

as im gonna type away complaining and keep on being like what mice would name me last time ( grumpy spoilt brat who does nothing and complains a lot )... i saw this pass it on message card. saying... RELAX, GOD'S IN CHARGE...

getting pretty gan jiong about certain stuff~ student con, xmas both coming up, attachment ( don't even know have or not - ah~ faithless!!! ), time managment... family... ack!!!... and yet i'm barking for people to reply my emails... ah~ relac... cool...

thinking: thinking about being ganjiong doesn't help haha~ it makes things worst in fact~ haha
song: where does my help comes from, it cometh from the lord... melting..