i have 2 choices. get angry. or cool it. the latter is healthier. though i think the former might let me feel good for a while. the latter it is... lesson learnt about doing group project. find proper projectmates who doesnt give empty promises and not do their work. i find it very hard to talk to this person tmr if he ever turn up for lesson. why do people give empty promises just like that? i mean, don't they feel embarassed or even guilty? i don't think so...

this same classmate of mine hurt me when he told me i had the worst case of speaking english, cheena accent, bad written english, trying hard to look good, not knowing enough. tell me. anymore? i admit. eversince i've been told about my english, you don't hear my speaking english that often anymore. i stammer my way through or even pause to prevent even more stammering or best of all, cover up in chinese... argh!

sometimes i ask myself over and over again. is it ok to be angry or sad? just how much is ok and not being emotional?

i'm was so frustrated that i started to cry.

i'm doing fine. no worries.

thinking: homework is still on but i won't succumb to anything nor anyone's standard of me.
song: phantom of the opera...