i gave 15 bucks to a boy i've never seen in my life. he was going around the bush to beg for money to take a cab to see his grandmother. he couldn't find his mother nor does he have any money with him. asking him where he was and how old (vincent from hongkah secondary sec 3). after much interogation, i gave him $15 and a muffin. his eyes became red and started tearing then he promptly wiped away his tears. he saw goodbye. i watched him from my house and saw that he dashed across the road, to the buildings opp. after that i prayed for him and i teared cos i know how it feels like to be desperate in such circumstances. morever, begging for money.

after awhile i thought to myself. was i conned by a 15 yr old boy? but what if it's true. $15 is nothing but i just felt that he was telling the truth. but i feel really funny because

(1) if he's lying - why? a bet he bet with his friend to see who can con the most amount ofmoney? a cheap thrill?

(2) if he's not lying - i hope everything turns out alright for him.

i told my sister, she said i was conned. he's an absolute liar. it's akin to giving money to drug addicts and then telling them to buy food when we jolly well know that they will spend it all on drugs. but somehow, i feel that he was telling the truth. i'm confused. did i do the right thing or not?

had shepherding with yokes on sat at s-11, was going through certain issues when we were scared stiff by a man, suddenly he just appeared at our table, putting his arms on our table and start to talk about his past (all 9 of his friends died in jail) then he said something about yehsu which i presumed to be jesus... and he start to tell us he had an injury (he started to pull his shirt and turn his back and as if he was about to pull down his pants)... yokes and i ran into the airconditioned area and hid in one corner...

i lost an 8 yr old collection of magazine trend archives. this is the second time and i'm extremely upset about it. i was thinking of using the archives for reference for one of the projects. i prayed again. this came to me. if he can create heavens and earth and design the most complex structure alive, how can he not give me the ability to come up with designs for a mere project? in the end, out of the 10 women outfits, 6 got chosen and out of the 4 men's oufit, 2 got chosen. tell me then, can i possibly do all these by myself?

No.

thinking: i'm hungry. for the wog.
song: to you