the spiritual atmosphere when the technical fault happened was simply wonderful. just you and me. i really thought that it was part of the program until i opened my eyes to see whats going on. i see people praying ernestly, people raising their hands, eyes closed and hands clasped tightly together... thats the best bit. i went down to pray for healing about my dad and myself... tears dropped but i really don't really care what others think about me anymore... been battling this issue for a long time... felt so much better after surrendering to god... the issue of insecurity.

im always so conscious about what people think or say if they see me doing this or that etc until to a point i get so tired of doing so. ever since several people told me i look fierce or bao ching tian (by livi thanks ah)... serious, this dao/fierce thingy has been mentioned many times on my blog before - irritating one leh... i tried to smile i tried to laugh but it's not within the heart... until i told god. im sick of this and why must if conform to what other people prefers me to look like? until i got a taste of it myself. now i know...

i used to get so conscious about my blog entry too because my classmates do read them and if im too christiany in my entries then a bit funny lah but hey, 2 tim 1:8 says do not be ashamed to testify about our lord. yup =D

alrights, next week is fully packed... and i'm looking forward to it. especially, mon,tues and wed

btw, my english sucks. i type directly chinese translated english... eeeee yer.

thinking: my fingers are itching for bball...
song: god he reigns