she said:

love yourself more.

i havent been to the beach for a long time, alone. i guess i really do need to spend some time by myself. reflecting on my thoughts, speech, actions and my life especially. life is too short to fight for and fuss over the mundane things in life. therefore we must live life to the fullest =)

jame 4:14 Nothing but a Wisp of Fog (the message version)

And now I have a word for you who brashly announce, "Today—at the latest, tomorrow—we're off to such and such a city for the year. We're going to start a business and make a lot of money." You don't know the first thing about tomorrow. You're nothing but a wisp of fog, catching a brief bit of sun before disappearing. Instead, make it a habit to say, "If the Master wills it and we're still alive, we'll do this or that."

after having a cuppa with D, i realise how much i've been trying to guard/defend my privacy fierecly. i dont have to tell anyone what im doing, where im going and whom im going out with. but its very disappointing to realise that people ask qns out of their own concern rather than being concern. as much as i dont give a hoot about what others do, why bother with mine? the line between being concern and kpoh is so thin. in the end, i rather not explain anything at all - it doesnt make any difference anyway. recently, deeper hidden issues that i've been trying to shadow or hide are starting to surface. not to haunt me but to help me learn that life is not as bad as i thought but rather, going through certain hardships is necessary which ive been avoiding for the longest time or... not willing to admit to it.

i wanna scream out loud.

walk barefooted on the beach.

read a book and lim milo peng gao.

and, i wanna ask God a few funny qns too.

:: i still haven't found what i'm looking for - U2 ::