part 1: the size tag, skin, hair and even eyes.

heroine chic was just a phase that lasted really long when the reign of supermodels were over. the fashion industry needed something fresh and new from the usual 80's volumptuous curvy silhouette. so when kate moss appear, she hit the jackpot. i like kate moss's aesthethic sense but i think that her bowl legged skinny body looks weird compared to curvy catherine zeta jones. and i thought if a woman is a hourglass shape, which is considered beautiful so why the rise in aneroxia and bulimia? when i lost weight, someone said, eh prettier now wor~ and when i gained a LITTLE, someone called me bui liu liu -_-' im taller than average, has high metabolism rate, proudly acknowledge that i have inherited some pretty good genes too. but i hate to admit this, i still wanna slim down and reach that 5 years ago 47kg. health, vanity or the pressure to stay slim? i know my answer.

hitler uses genocide to make sure that his absurd theory of achieving the pure superior aryan race or racial subjugation is met by sieving out the hispanics, blacks, gypsies and of cos, the jews. i bet that if there were any chinese, we'll be segregated too. and those who are considered impure have their eyes injected with chemicals to change their eyes to blue and many other horrendous experiments. what's with the blonde, white skin, higher nose bridge and blue eyes? they have more fun meh? a brunette teenager decided to bleach her roots. just so that she can appear closer to "white" when she's already a white. look at beyonce and mary j blige. they're black yet becoming blonder and fairer.

chinese women are considered more beautiful - if they have creases on their eyes. that few milimeters to 1cm thick crease aka double eyelid make up the top percentage requested surgery in asia today. i cant even mutter a channel 5/8 actress with single eyelids. being chinese, most of us are destined to have slanted almond shape eyes that disappears into a line when one smile. and most chinese girls are having perpetual "SURPRISE!" expressions or even worse, force eye to look big big and poke out when they pose for a pic. i know la... to make eyes appear bigger on the pic but looking terrifically surprise all the time is rather scary if you ask me. plus all that brow raising sure causes washboard forehead when they reach 40. i like eyes that crescents, its more friendly like this ^.^ than this O.O so whats wrong with creasless eyes?

200 pounds beauty made me think twice about beauty. so if she's chubby does that means she wont find a proper society accepted status? this constant frenzy media feed has altered many minds to become aneroxic and bulimic... there's even a golden ratio of how beauty can be measured. balanced and more symmetrical looking people get better jobs, higher pay and get promoted faster. and an experiment even shows that babies prefer gazing into the eyes of cindy crawford than quasimodo.

so what's this... self hatred? and what standards are the girls conforming to? the calculations of a standard beauty that a plastic surgeon can alter OR what God sees in us? i typed this after reading this.

http://www.finalcall.com/artman/publish/article_2919.shtml

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