gah. there's one hundred and one things that i wanna blog about but i just dont know where to start.

one thing for sure. God did speak to me recently. after many stubborn attempts to siam His voice, i finally turned back and said, simi la... ok i was kidding on that one. on saturday's unit fishing trip, He let in a little word, perservere. it's weird though because i always think that im very capable of surviving/shouldering the biggest hurt, the nastiest word spit or the harshest scolding. the truth is, im not. who am i kidding man, if there's any prize for the biggest loser, prob i'll get it, with distinction hahaha. anyway, yep, i thought hard and thorough about the what's in my life recently, work, social life, family and most importantly, what do i really really want in my life - am i really able to perservere through it all?

im glad. really. and this perfect song sums up my feelings too ^^

i dont wanna go - avalon

You changed my world
when You came to me
You drove a passion
in my soul down deep
Lord, to follow You in everything

i don't want to go somewhere
if i know that You're not there
cause i know that me without You, is a lie
i don't want to walk that road
be a million miles from home
cause my heart needs to be
where You are, so I don't want to go

so come whatever,
i'll stick with You,
i'll walk, You lead me,
call me crazy or a fool
for forever i promise You that

without Your touch
without your love
filling me like an ocean,
for Your grace is enough
enough for me
to never want to go somewhere
if i know that Your not there

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