cool meeting we had last night. we got locked in nexus. how cool can that be... with the security alarm going off and that funny japanese drunk man losing a drink game and running towards the whole di unit laughing and waving his arms in the air saying~ i have lost!!! then telling us to join him for a drink cos it's fun. oh wells, the security alarm did go off in the end. yeah~

i feel hurt. i guess the same goes to you. i didnt know that i hurt you so much with words i said to the both of you. but thanks for being there all along for me. but finding time for me is not important. is the quality of it. i did complained but always in a joking manner. how would you like it if you called me to talk but had to hang up because i was on the phone with my friend. my friend. my friend. my friend. my friend. my friend. my friend. my friend. my friend. my friend. my friend. my friend. my friend. my friend. my friend. my friend. my friend. my friend. my FRIEND. i guess i was never there. am trying to understand the circumstances around and trying to adapt to new people joining in the group. hard. very hard. i never hide anything from you. NEVER. cos you'll never tell. you had to hide things from me cos i'll tell. told you it's the betrayal of trust. from my side. my sorries i present to you. i am sorry.

i'll make myself busy with more things from now on. taking up more stuff. forgetting some stuff. maybe my epilepsy is a good thing after all. i tend to forget more things. maybe the things i don't wanna remember.

i feel really hurt. i can't even swallow my saliva. no tears but hurt. kudos. cos i caused it too.

ephesians 4:26 ( in your anger do not sinn. don't not let the sun go down while you are still angry. do not let the devil have a foothold ) hi satan. having a good time turning my world upside down one after another huh. well, your time is up soon. does that scare the pee in your pants to flood?

thinking: need a sleep
song: song... no song... no song at all...