+ thanks ding... +

everybody hurts everybody cries. i guess i've never put myself in your shoes before cos i know it's too big for me to fill. i do miss the good old days when she's still here. things got torn apart the moment she left us. i miss her i really do. i just wanna feel her warmth. i really miss her just like you. i can't deny that i've been trying to keep myself busy so that i could forget about her being gone. there's nothing much more i want than to hold her hand tightly. i cried when i went to the old folks home cos when i saw them being helpless and when i hold one of the patient's hands... i couldn't stop my tears from falling. cos her hand, holding my hand so tightly, it felt like her's. when she walk on, i turn my eyes to you cos you're the only one who's considered the one i respected next to her. i find it hard to confide in him. cos he has someone new. he don't trust us anymore. neither do i. i guess it's time to open up to each other. can we still hang on together? is there still cheery things for us to hang onto? why are we fighting? can we be the same again? i can't handle a lot of things. i can't do much. i can't. we hurt each other. we... no, me. i hurt you loads. why do things have to be like this within the past 1 1/2 years? when will it be be calm? when? why are there people who can't appreciate what they have now? are we still reeling in the hurts we try to surpress on that fateful day? why do you still treat me so nice? i really don't deserve this. i don't. if god give us grace then i'll call this is undeserved 2nd chance. sometimes i really do hate myself for saying stuff that i can't take back. sometimes i felt i really need to think twice but when things are being spit out, there's nothing much i can do except to regret. can we be the same again?
+ i love you +
+i really do+
+ smile +