hi darls: you're loved by all. circumstances will weight you down but god will always be floating because his yok is light. now things look and seem hurtful but i know you're a strong woman if not how do you survive all the ordeals you have been through all these while. from your bro to your mom to your moving of the house. i really salute you sometimes for your independence and dependence to stick to god through up and down and going through some sticky mess thats really... urgh. kudos to your stubborness that makes you stand firm in all stickyness but makes people kinda not want to ask you stuff so keep it mild k~ muacks!

di-ians. trials over and over again. when will they be over? just a note. brave through all these storms with god and you'll see rainbows waiting for you. remember peter? well, his story a bit hard core lah~ literally walk on water... but we do walk on water too guys. we walk towards god while having problems but we focus on the waves instead cos we walk by sight and not by faith. in every trial, in every problem, until to the ending race, how many of us will be left there? it's like a darn long marathon with hidden holes, rocks, lizards, cockroaches, harsh weather and maybe an insane cannibal in between and we're running without a compass, map, rifle, food, water etc... are you depending on god for everything? DI-DIANS!!! WE CAN DO IT TOGETHER!!!

realise how some people out there can affect us? even just a question asked, a look given, a word spoken or an action taken? bottom line - insecure. we all face it man. hate it but we have to go through it. one sister cried cos she felt that someone spoke to her harshly - but what happened was that that friend was kinda busy with everything and just wanted to be alone. so many different examples... and we do go through them right? come on, lets lean on god. not circumstances. if you feel that you're right and you're given the red light instead. let it be. very hard i know... god knows even more... he was innocent and yet he didn't even complain when the vote was cast...

recently i felt so pissed about everything, ministry not doing very well, can't find sheep - sheep doesnt reply, being in an all guys cg ( felt funny then tried not to be su nu cos if you can't beat them, join them ), homework piling, friends kinda acting funny all, financial problems, family alone is one huge headache, mental and spiritual torture and physically not very strong also blah blah blah... in all, was going to be burnt out soon then i felt kinda stupid cos all these while ive been using human strength. talk to god, felt better, now everything seems smaller cos in the end, god is always there for me. family and friends fall but god doesnt, cos he's like a ballon for me to hang onto.

god - light
me - burden gaining weight bag

but in the end, he'll polish me. groom me. fill me. feed me. lift me up.

thinking: i wanna eat peanut paste dessert
song: i am cow... hear me moo..