if i don't give any comments about what you do in your place of worship why bother with mine? trying to keep quiet about it stinks and it's extremely hard. if we both can't take those imperishable splinters out of our own eye slits then don't try plucking out each other's planks then. settle with god by yourself and same goes to me. if i'm comfy with my way and i find that i can do better with it. so be it. ever heard of this - ignorance is a bliss? if knowing things and giving comments or feeling worse after knowing the truth then by all means, shut your ears. don't come kaypoh and ask then start to feel indifferent or give comments when in the first place no one ask for it. let god judge each own's heart and not ourselves judge each other. hello. hard is the word here. no one is born perfect. we need mentors to look over us and to guide us. you're a shepherd too - don't come and say you're not and then give some explaination that you're just helping the person to understand the wog better. give me a better word then. if every week, more than 3 times which i have to go though this freaking mental torture with you. tell me. what is it that you wanted to tell me in the very first place which we couldn't settle it all the while? if ignoring you means emotional blackmail then i guess i exploited your good intention by screaming your head off when you start to pressure me for answers which you don't even wanna accept and when you jolly know what i will reply you first place. hey. getting replies out of my mouth and yet trying to prove my replies are wrong then whats the point of asking? tell me honey. writing doesn't work. sms doesn't either. talking face to face usually ends in a foul stinky mood which the air couldn't filter through then what about this. keep quiet. let me have some peace. i can't even have a friendly corny joke with you. the only thing that come out of your mouth is. tsk. if having humour in our life is useless than i guess watching any mr bean episode is a very sad thing for our eyes. smile! laugh! if i am so considered the smallest thing in your life and yet gives the most problem then don't keep on telling me that. ever heard of this word - encourage? putting me down more than countable times is more than enough. my value doesn't fall because god values me and you don't give discount to me on that. if telling me to encourage each other through sms then smile at me when i see you but then start to ask me questions then start to reason with me about how wrong everything is? show me then. don't start the conversation and then end it up with a super high note of screamers. i will be going to na's place for a while. at least i don't have to see you for the next few days. if this is called running away from problems then i guess it gives me some time to keep to myself for a while then to have world war 3 acting up. i took the lift up by myself without waiting for you yesterday is simply due to the fact that we will really start to gnaw each other's limbs if we cont the conversation at the void deck. whats the point of all these kinds of different sugar coated converstions when it'll start to sour once things don't meet eye to eye? what's the difference you tell me!!! you do things last min so do i. when i have a project to do last min you insist you have to do yours but you have a lap top and yet you're using it so whats the use of the com then? to collect dust ah. when i told my project mates that i can't have conference meeting on msn for the project you said go ahead and use the com cos you're not using. then what are you up to in the first place?! i can't read minds you know. i can't. i really can't. i only can see face expressions. hello. face expressions. i bet you don't have any. cos you stop smiling for a long time. you stop. you don't tell me your problems and yet you take it out on me. go ahead i'm seriously ok with it but at least tell me whats going on?! don't act all scary and start to scold me and then say sorry and then do all these again the very next day. hey this is my side of story. you have yours and i totally respect that cos everything takes 2 hands to clap. but then again, i am so super defensive and you're so super at interrupting. how to go on? someone must give way. if giving way means keeping quiet and that means emotional blackmail to you then how?
I QUIT.
thinking: homework
song: i will survive - germaine kwek
