i've received a letter. hand written. simple words. sincere heart. but most of all. this person meant everything she wrote for me... xueqi =) your words in the letter really touched my heart... awww... *kiss kiss* and gal, you have your first di convert!!! your first sheep!!! retain!!! di2!!! we musn't stop at 7 anymore. lets start with 8 and go higher okay!!!

these few weeks hasn't been exactly smooth. a lot of changes to adjust to, more things to take up and well school work hasnt been really going well... or is it because i haven't been finding joy in doing things... its the latter, really... but everytime something happened and when the after effects starts to kick in (like finally realising that everything is not so bad after all or it's just me being emotional) i start to smile and feel... you know... childish and stupid... dang... just for the sake of having some reaction in that instant moment... bah~

i remembered when i was young i read about the book of daniel and the only thing i could remember was the part that he was well protected in both the lion's den and in the fire... i re-read again and the first chapter really strike me a lot about how he refused to eat rich food etc and no matter what and he still standby his faith... wha!!! ji faithful yi sia!!! wo yeah yao!!!

told meihwa about somehow i prefer to be alone sometimes... she told me that i learnt to enjoy god's presence more and not being rah rah and trying to be with the loudest crowd. i couldnt agree more... it's funny how much lame jokes(muah chee), dirty jokes (phlegm and regurgitation) and those sadistic shows (boiling point and happy tree friends) i really enjoy... but somehow... there's a softer side... preferring to watch shows like life is beautiful, to gillian on her 38th birthday and c'est la vie mon cherie etc shows when i'm alone... so that i could brawl (spell check) my eyes out...

but i love it best when i stand at my living room's main window, looking over the night scenary and then just look at the skies at night (colours in red, purple and those stars) reminding me of how beautiful god's creation is.... the human body is so complex - tell me who made us? those snowflakes, all individual like fingerprints, who made them this way? mother nature? evolution? well all i know is that darwin must be turning in his grave every now and then whenever archaelogists found some biblical artifacts and doctors finding out that even monkeys havin 99.8% close dna as us doesnt makes much diff... so does that mean that the 0.2% is the difference why we turn out to be more erm... modern and less hairy then monkeys? 0.2%... what a theory...

i'm tired physically because i just played helicopter with jingmin =D... and we sang hokkien songs while walking to ps... ended up sharing life in the mrt about how to be more appreciative towards people and things in our lives... she went for the mission trip and she seen how people dump their parents and ran off... i think this really speaks to me on how sometimes i should appreciate my family more and not take them for granted... treasure them people...

thinking: projects!!!
song: in christ alone