buying people gifts feels better than receiving them ^^

Acts 20:35 (the message)
... 'You're far happier giving than getting.'"

im bounded and chained by certain issues i cant let go of. i'm still learning a particular lesson that im half excited about yet finds it so hard to change. it's like a sin with clawing roots that hangs on to your every cell and to require one to pluck this sin out is like feeling the pain of your toenail extracted x n³². excruciating painful and long. and i realised that i cannot take hardship. i complain my butt off, i give up uber easily, and i rather walk away - defeated than face the music.. and that facade im constantly building, who am i bluffing?

but i still do hear God's voice calling out to me, to be strong for He is strong. to be the best, simply because He's the best, do not fear, for He's is here and lastly... to be real because He loves me for who i am.

:: amen ::